Love Stinks...or so the song says...

So I've been thinking! It's hard work being in a relationship. Everyone is different and brings different things and different neuroses to the table and it's hard to navigate the waters of a new relationship!

Like, seasoned relationships usually have all the kinks worked out...and brand new relationships are usually so new that people are blind to the problems, but there is that middle ground where you are unsure about everything and the biggest fights occur because you are trying to figure out boundaries and comfortable places. It's the part where you find out if this crush is truly love, or if it is just a beautiful summer fling that you tried for months and months to have, but he just wouldn't let you.

Yeah...yeah....that's where I am. It's hard, but I really, really think that Mr. Anonymous and I can work through it. I mean, dare I say it...the "L" word? I don't know, but I think I might just!!! Either way, it sucks right now because we're working out the kinks and the horrible shit that has happened to both of us in the past and GOD!!!!! is it hard and frustrating. But I think, if I do truly love him as I claim I do, that I can look past it, relax and learn to accept both of us for who we are!


On another note, my poor brother was dicked around by his girlfriend because she didn't have the fucking guts to break up with him. Thankfully, he got sick of being treated like yesterdays news and broke it off with her. In doing that, he found out she wanted to break up with him for a while, but I truly feel that he is the one who broke it off with her. It just sucks because he treated her like gold, when everyone else treated her like shit, and she prefers to be an afterthought notch in some douche bags bed, rather than a princess in the world of a man among men. Whatever. It's not my relationship; it just sucks that that whore is a bitch and I let her into my life. LAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So anyway kiddies, just keep your heads up. Fall seems to be the season where the summer flings are separated from the real relationships, and I'm just hoping to survive!!!

Here's to all our survivals!!!!

Hugs!!!

Joanna!

Dreams do come true!

Well, well, well, well, well.

My patients paid off! Mr. Anonymous and I have been OFFICIALLY boyfriend/girlfriend since May 20something. Yeah, I know the real date (because I'm a girl like that) but I'm not putting it on here because, you know, the whole ANONYMOUS thing. He he! But yeah - it's been almost 4 months of the best relationship so far (I mean, if you don't include the other 8 months of terrible relationship...but whatever...he learned and I'm doing really well!!!)

Still no job :(

I had one, but I ran into a medical problem due to something that happened in the past, and so I wasted a month of job searching. UGH!!! But I'm getting back on track. I had two last week. One went really well and the other went TERRIBLE! The interviewer had a problem with me because I was different from her. She tried to tell me I was racist and I was "in the wrong country". But forget her! I'm better than that!! I wanna go into social work because I care about ALL people. I'm sorry if she can't see that, but yeah, there's one job I'm NOT taking!!!

Other than that, all is good. We're gearing up for a big festival this weekend to celebrate our Green Heritage. I'm totally stoked!!! It's going to be a lot of fun, I hope. One friend is bringing two people that I don't know and I'm scared that they'll cause some trouble for my girlfriend who's house we're using. It's the first time we're going to her parents house without her parents and she and I are very worried. I'm just hoping that Mr. Anonymous will keep my crazy rainbow best friend in check (since they're best friends as well) and we can all have a relaxing weekend!

I'll give you updates come next Monday.

Look forward to it, kiddies!! I'M FUCKING BACK!!!!!

XO <3 XO
Joanna