That's it. That's freaking it. Why do I even bother going on dates? Maybe I'm just way beyond this crap right now, but it just gets so freaking awkward. It's not worth it.
I should just concentrate on my career and enjoy the free drinks I sometimes get from anonymous (and hopefully, they will stay that way) guys at bars. Conversation just flows so much easier over drinks and if I'm lucky enough to get a buzz - well, it's just that much easier to ignore just how freaking dull men at bars are. But then again, I don't want a pseudo-emo snob who thinks he knows everything about everything. I'd rather shoot myself than date someone like that.
Where are all the fun loving guys that are full of personality and life. And if they're into playing games - well, then be it! I'm for serious. So many times have I found that players tend to be assholes, but they're so much fun to be around. Besides, since I don't want a relationship, maybe a player is just what I need.
Yeah, I've gone mad.
But, I really truly want to dedicate my all to my career and to going out to fabulous places. That's it. Nothing more, nothing less.
Deal with it,
-Jess
