My delemma...

Sorry it’s been so long – let me catch you up!

As you all know, I’ve been seeing Mr. Anonymous for a few months now. We were never officially bf/gf, but we date on the regular. So now he’s got this awesome new job but the hours are all weekend. He’ll be working every weekend! So now, when I have off, he’ll be working 10 hour days and when he has off, I’ll be working my 8:30 to 4:30. Sigh! And here in lies the problem!

I want to ask him out. I am in extreme liking with him and have finally become comfortable enough not to spazz if I don’t see him for a few days. But am I ready for the effort this would take? We’ll never take day trips…never sleep in each others arms…never go anywhere crazy. Just dinner and a movie (rented most likely). The thing is, maybe this is what I want?! I mean, maybe I need my weekends for my friends and my week nights to feel connected to a man. I don’t know!

This has disaster written all over it, as well as perfect out. Really, if we decide not to be bf/gf, we can just let it fade into a comfortable friendship through the process of never having any time to spend together. But I don’t know if I like that. Really, I’ve never been able to remain friends with an “ex” I’ve gotten so “close” to, you know? I don’t know if I am stable enough for that. Will I always want him? Will I always wonder? I don’t know…I never tried it before.

We will have to wait and see.

If you have any suggestions, let me know!

Until next time, bloggers
Absence makes the heart grow fonder…

…Johanna.